Wow...last time I activly did something on deviant art was in...May?! I feel like fail...ah well, I actually uploaded something this time, makes me feel good to be part of the community again >.> Short and sweet journal entry is short and sweet, mmk bai nao.

I'm finally done, after weeks (ok so I wasn't there 24/7 but still) of tirelessly finding pictures in the 51 episodes of FMA, I'm done with my Homonculi Backgrounds. I hope you guys like them!!! Chao!

So yeah, I just wanted to pop in and say that I'm back and with a vengance. I'm gonna give this place a go again and hopefully I'm gonna actually put some art out here. I know I ain't that good, but I really don't care. This site is about free expression and I'm expressin' (I also kinda wanted to get rid of my previous entry, it's really down)

I know we're supposed to just put what's going on in these but you know what, I just have to let this go out to the Web and through that the world. I have had a very shitty week and I'm beginning to think that the whole world is against me. I try to do my best at what I'm good at, but I still feel as if no one cares. You want examples, those I can easily provide.

1) My dad is a bastard. He is constantly up my ass about everything and every time I forget to do things he just gets mad because I forgot. Also he has no sympathy towards me. Last week my car got hit in the door and I just let the girl who did it go, because it was a small dent and the door was literally from the junkyard. This week I get home from brass band and my dad asks me to come outside. Then he starts yelling at me for the dent in the car. I didn't know what to do and he is freaking out over it. Then he vows to never help me pay for my car again...the next week he goes out and buys me a tank of gas and gets the wheels changed and the power steering belt changed. GOD HE IS SO CONFUSING.

2) There is this kid in my choir class (oh how I loathe him) EVERY FREAKING GIRL in the class adores him because he can sing and he's black. I can sing just as well as him, possibly better, and the entire class idolizes him. I try my best in the class and he even recognizes me as a very good singer, but the class seems to think he's the only boy that can sing well. I just want to hit them all.

3) I play the trumpet as well as sing and today I find out that 4h band is starting next march, w00t. So I'm excited with this news and my dad comes up to me and starts going on about how I'm not the best at trumpet, only at my school. SHOUT OUT TO MY DAD: NOOOOO SSSSHHHHHIIIIITTTTT!!!! The man makes me feel worthless and I just feel like nothing I can do is good enough for him.

4) I was browsing here today and I just came to realize...I am a shitty artist. What I do is nothing. I try my best but it is shit compared to practically everyone else's works.

I guess I just want to be somebody and I know I'm not. I want to stand out in this life but nothing I do seems worthwhile. I'll keep trying but I don't know how much longer I can take this. Maybe the world would be better without me in it.

So this week was my first swim meet at my high school and my first overall. Let me tell those of you that don't know, swimming is hard as crap if your slightly overweight. I nearly died out there swimming four laps. I suppose it was alright out there though, because we got third place over all.

But hey, enough of that, lets talk about christmas! I just began to get into the Christmas mood today and I cannot wait until the big day. So far I know I'm getting a laptop and couple of new games. I hope I can get enough money to buy a Wii, but that's just wishful thinking. ( I hate not having a job >.< )

Things to do:

1) Find that D*@$ jump drive so I can post my character bio for the Chain of Elements story Windlord and a few others are writing.

2) Homework (sigh)

3) Swimming Practice

4)Trumpet Practice

5) Gain some insparation for a new sig, or pic or something, I'm dying not arting. (Yes I just made up a word)